recently had been very tired n exhausted due 2 the ongoing tests n assignments
then had been emotionally unstable
dunno is me being too sensitive or izzit tt in reality i m being neglected
in situations like this i really feel like looking up on my horoscope 2 see if i m so unlucky this wk or its just nt my wk
haizzzz...

had a sluggish feeling which is nt very gd.....
it felt as if i hav no frens so i must stick ard with them....so nt gd feeling la
n some more they totally ignored, isolate, treat me as invisible...etc
anything u can think of after being treated like tt
then they like totally dun care how i feel at all
its as if i m an extra, nt wanted, dun belong, should nt be there at all
aaaaarrrrrggggggg......
i hate all those ppl who gave me hopes n then totally ignored me like i m an object like tt
in need then will look 4 it or else will be left on the shelf collecting dust
they also seem 2 be keeping something from me
like they r talking something i cant get 2 noe or like talking my bad word like tt

n the more irratating part is tt we cant even communicate properly during project discussion
they will like be in their own world looking at other stuffs which i cant even enter
its like i m shut out of their palace like a begger......
how come things always turn out this way whenever i start 2 trust someone

sometimes i really wonder if it is me who nv try 2 enter their world,
if i nv try 2 get into their topic of discussion,
or just plainly i m treated like an outcast

this made me feel like nt turning up 4 lesson in sch cause i dun feel belonged
its like nt a single one in class acknowledge my presence
i felt so lost.... its like wandering ard some unknown place
up 2 here, it made me feel tt i fit into fei lun hai's song yi ge ren liu lang

anyway, now talk abt my studies
gt asp n dcn test 2day n yesterday respectively
then was also rushing report with no one caring how i do it or i can manage it anot
then nv sleep at all n rush down 2 sch straightaway to rush printing n last min editing
n ms shirley called me 2 ask abt nic??? cause he absent too often 4 her lesson
told her all i noe n she hung up... she is a very nice tcher like ms sin

dunno y now i feel like crying n shouting out loud
it feels like no one cares abt me.....
had the feeling of nt taking my medicine n just die cause no one cares if i live or die